I have fallen down to a wave of depression recently. I must remember though, that depression comes in waves and it doesn’t last forever. To me, depression looks like not being able to feel joy in anything. What is especially upsetting is my hobbies that do not interest me anymore. Throughout my life, my hobbies have been so much to me and when depression started getting bad, I decided not to give up on them. This may sound like a good thing, but it leads me to not being able to do things that I need to do. When I am depressed I spend all of my time doing something I used to love, over and over until I feel joy in it again. This is also from anxiety. I get so anxious that the depression will last forever, that I spend time on my hobbies just to see if I feel anything again. If I don’t, I just keep trying. However, I need to do other things beside this. I need to do laundry, I need to study, I need to go out with friends, not only obsess about enjoying things in the way that I do. Going out with friends and being productive always helps but I never feel I have the motivation when I feel this way. Also, spending time “having fun,” isn’t really all that fun, when fun is just an experiment to see if depression this time will last forever. So I have decided to channel my depression and use it to make me feel good about myself. I am going to stop obsessing over this, and start doing the things I need to do. When I feel this way I want to stay inside and not speak to anyone until I feel joy again, but now I am going to suck it up and go out. I vow to do everything I need to do, and more. This will help me feel stronger. I will be able to tell myself that I can feel so depressed but I am strong enough to get through it and thrive on it. I think I will thrive because it is motivation now, my depression. Everything will feel like climbing up a mountain and this makes it more motivating. I also love this idea because it will make me feel respected as an adult. I used to hate the idea of being an adult. It seemed so boring. But now, being an adult means respect. For this wave of depression I am going to make a list of things I need to do during the times when I would rather not. I am going to continue my longer walks with my dog. I will continue trying my hardest to lucid dream (which I have been trying for awhile but haven’t succeeded and have almost given up). I am going to give my all to school and studies, and I will continue writing and doing yoga every day. My hope is that I will feel empowered and happy just by defying the depression and I will feel respected and strong. Maybe that is the cure for me.
Ps. I can’t believe I forgot the most important part! I’m using this depression as a way of telling me I have more potential. If I stop obsessing on things that I’m never going to pursue, then I need to do other things that will unlock my true potential! Think of your depression like that! It’s getting you to not enjoy old things, in order to try the new!
Yes girl!!!! Hope, hope, hope! You’re so strong💕
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Thank you!!! 💜💜💜
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I like and respect your attitude toward taking control over it. It will lift in due time. I have my times as well. Sometimes a day or two and sometimes longer. What usually helps me is watching a goofy “B” movie with my brother to just get my mind off of whatever.
Do you think it just might be because of the holiday season?
Lifting you up in prayer. 🙂
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I honestly have no idea what sets it off sometimes! But if it has to do with the holiday, it has do with the fact that they are over! 😦 Christmas is the best! Thank you for your lovely comment! 🙂
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thank you so much 🙂
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I’m wishing you the best! ☺
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thank you! you too!
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What amazing perspective you have to self-reflect and come away with a new outlook. I hope this bout passes soon. Thank you for sharing. It helps all of us work through our own stuff.
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Thank you! It actually is helping a lot and is passing!
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I emerge myself into my hobbies too and then down out the rest of the world. This is so relatable, every single sentence 💘💘💘
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Thank you for your comment. Sometimes I feel that depression is just not caring about anything. I care very much about things but I just can’t feel much from it anymore. Thank you for sharing I’m not alone in that 🙂
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A open letter to my depression
Welcome. Again. I thought those happy pills my therapist gave me finally made you leave but of course you’re stubborn and you didn’t. I didn’t feel like moving today , it was one of those days where I plastered a fake smile on my face trying to ignore the cracking of my soul inside , I didn’t feel like breathing. I thought it would be that day where I would finally give up but no, you ,dear depression, you made me live still and die simultaneously. Little by little I cut off my ties with the rest of the world and tried to leave my brain chemicals to do what it does best : fill me with recurrent thoughts of self harm. I am tired and fatigued with the constant repetitive thoughts and the sadness hanging over me like a cloud and the feelings of worthlessness. Exhausted with not being understood. You make me feel like I’m drowning on land when people around me are breathing.
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Amazing and very relatable. I relate a lot to how you think it left but then it’s stubborn and always comes back. That’s a really hard part
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I love the hope and motivation in this post, keep fighting the depression. Following you for more fight. Stephen
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Thank you so much!
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Great post! I know exactly what you mean about hobbies not having any appeal anymore! Stay strong! Like you said, depression comes in waves so this wave will pass.
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thanks so much!
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I am struggling really bad with depression right now. I have never dealt with it before. Your post has given me hope, especially when you said it comes in waves. I’m hoping I get out of this funk soon. I have always dealt with severe anxiety. Great post!
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I think knowing what depression is, is a good first step. Knowing what it is can help with relating to others! I hope you feel better but I know you will!
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Very motivational
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Thank you!
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I don’t know if you’re willing but I’ve written some posts that may help you out a little more or atleast give you something to do if you’re interested in checking them out. Feedback is always welcome. https://seascapeminds.wordpress.com
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sure no problem at all!
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What an amazing blog post the hope abd motivation in this post is truly outstanding keep fighting I wish I could have managed this.
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Thank you!:)))$
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Thank you for this, just what I needed to read today! x
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Thank you for your nice comment 🙂
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Hi,
May I offer the answer that will help you?
The Lord Jesus Christ came that we may have life. Not “religion,” that isn’t the answer.
But by merely believing on the Lord Jesus Christ as your Saviour. Believe that His death, burial, and resurrection accomplished your forgiveness and justification. And you WILL have new life.
God loves you.
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Thank you so much! I have Been working on this a lot lately 🙂
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Religion has misrepresented what Christ has done for us in so many cases.
Do you have a true understanding of what life in Christ really is, and how to obtain it?
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very inspiring post, i have battled with depression myself for several years now and can relate to this a lot, great to see your not losing your motivation! 🙂
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thank you! I hope you don’t lost your motivation either!
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I try to keep motivated, its definately a struggle at times but for now, everything is ok 🙂
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Being productive, I have found, really helps!
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Definately, thats one of my reasons for starting my blog, just doing something more productive with my time.
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For some reason I’ve never thought of my blog as something productive but thats completely true! Thank you for that new perspective 🙂
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Depression is all about finding a way to fight back. Sounds like you’re doing just that. Good luck, I’m sure you’ll find you are stronger than you thought !
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thank you :)!
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Really encouraging. We’re often much stronger and able to overcome dark times. The dark times really don’t last, but sometimes we have to take steps to get into the light. It sounds like you have a good understanding of your own depression, that’s the best start. Keep battling.
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Thank you! 🙂
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I look forward to reading more of your blogs.
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thank you that means a lot!
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No problem. Great to connect and encourage others. We’re all on a journey!
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That’s a great way to look at it! None of us are suffering alone
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Are you in the US? I’m in the UK, I also find it encouraging that people round the world can be strong/not suffer alone. It’s so easy when times are dark to feel isolated.
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Yes I am in the US! I used to not understand what depression meant so I thought I didn’t have this disease and I was the only one suffering. Now that I know what it is, and that people have overcome it, it is so much easier to be positive
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That’s cool, I’m visiting a friend from Uni this summer-my first trip to the States!
I’m actually really glad people are starting to talk more about their depression, there’s a great charity here-“Time to Talk, Time to Change.” You’re so right, much easier to be positive when you know you aren’t alone facing depression.
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Came here to offer my thanks for your recent decision to follow Learning from Dogs. So pleased I did for your writing is so open and honest. Would love it if you wanted to write a guest post for my readers.
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Thank you I would love to!!!
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On the home page of Learning from Dogs is a link: Get Involved. That’s a quick and easy way to get you going. Are you aware of how having a dog in our lives produces oxytocin in both our brain and the brain of our dog? If not, I will include that in my introduction to your guest post. Look forward to reading it.
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thank you so much! I’ll get to work on it. I did know about the oxytocin in our brain but i didn’t know it about the dogs. I will also do some research on this
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If you can put a quiet hour to one side then do watch the BBC Horizon programme The Secret Life of the Dog. There’s a clip and a link to the programme now on Top Documentary Films here: https://learningfromdogs.com/2017/02/09/history-dogs-humans/
It is the most incredible story of us and dogs and includes the research undertaken by Prof. Kerstin Uvnas-Moberg of the Karolinska Institute in Sweden. Professor K. goes into the health benefits for both us and dogs that flows from the relationship.
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thank you so much, I was just researching and was having trouble finding what i needed so this will work perfectly!
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Great post!! So awesome. Keep on doing what you’re doing, girl!
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Thank you!
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I’m savannah, it’s nice to meet you!
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You too! My name is sydney
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You are beautiful, intelligent and powerful. You will get through this.
Please check out my site and my latest post about dealing with depression in a relationship, but I have a great resource for dealing with depression.
Be blessed.
https://ladyhoodjourney.com/2017/05/19/depressed-love/
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Thank you so much 🙂 I will defiantly check it out! I’m on vacation now but I’ll be sure to look when I get home
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Please do. Continue to enjoy your vaca. #lifegoals
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Its good to take matters in your own hands to get better!
Best of luck!
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Thanks for this. I am fighting the battle too, and many of your thoughts and actions are familiar to me.
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i am very sorry you are fighting this as well but it’s possible to overcome!
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I strongly relate to this and feel like I am writing it myself. It’s amazing to know your not the only person who feels like that. Thank you
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I actually didn’t know if others felt the same way, so the fact that people are relating helps me too!
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Great post!
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Thank you! 🙂
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I really loved this particular post; I like the balance between optimism and talking honestly about your feelings. It was such a refreshing read 🙂
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Thank you so so much! And I would love to! I’ll check it out later today 🙂
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Great post. I totally understand how you are feeling and have inspired me to try to do the same. How are you getting on?
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When you say do the same, are you talking about not liking your major? If you are, maybe I can help! What is your major?
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When I say “the same” I mean channel it, so you can try to take control of it instead of it controlling you. I was wondering how that was working out for you. 🙂
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It’s working wonders for me! It makes you feel alive and accomplished and for me those lead to being able to feel everything again!
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And my apologies, I thogghht this comment was on a different post! But I am so glad you got sometjijg out of it!
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Loved it ! Much respect !!! Hey guys if you get a second, please give my first blog a look. Thank you
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Thank you! I will for sure check out your blog:)
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Love your perspective!
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Thanks!!
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You got this! Check out my blog and let me know if you like it. I overcame depression and we have walked very similar paths.
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I will for sure and thank you!
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thinking of you hope you start your journey back soon. ive just got over it and its what made me start my blog- looks like you have been blogging longer. You will get better just need to keep going x
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Thank you 🙂 blogging is one of the things that has helped me!
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I can so relate to you even though i am just on the verge of becoming an adult, though not an adult yet. Its hard and keeping it all together is really hard. Go girl!
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Depression can be especially hard if you aren’t an adult yet! But being an adult is when I started to recover! Hopefully the same will happen to you too!
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