My Favorite Therapy Skills

The first one is self as context. This means that you are not truly one thing. You don’t have to mold yourself into what you believe you are or have to be. It makes labels not make sense. Sometimes I am shy, sometimes I am outgoing. I cannot label myself as either one because every moment and every experience calls for something different. (This skill took me awhile to understand, so if I am wrong on this skill, feel free to correct me).

Then I love mindfulness. This one started as boring for me and then turned into something I use almost everyday. This is where you make sure you are aware of your surroundings. This helps immensely with anxiety. You occupy your mind while you tell yourself to look for certain colors around the room. Or you just sit outside looking at nature and make sure you notice and feel every single wonderful thing.

Building mastery. This is when you learn new things in order to gain self-esteem or a sense of accomplishment. This one is obviously self explanatory and if you are learning something new, you are already using this skill. However, this is something you need to keep in mind if you are in a rut and feel you need something to get yourself out.

I talk about changing your perspective all the time in this blog so it’s only appropriate    that I share it here. This skill is when you take something you dislike about yourself and then you change it into something positive. This is what I try to do with this blog. Share the wonderfulness that I see in every aspect of all everyone can be. Tall or short? You can love yourself if you are either. It makes sense. Two people who are completely the opposite physically or mentally both have the option to love themselves; both have the capacity to be confident. You cannot look at someone and say with fact, “That person has got to be confident.” Just like you cannot look at someone and also say with fact, “That person has got to be insecure.” There is no universal type of person who is the epitome of confidence. That is saved for someone who is just actually incredibly confident no matter who they are. Every single person on this planet has the power inside of them for self-love. Which means your insecurities are not true. If confidence about some aspect of yourself is not inside of you but is inside of someone else just like you, you can find it too. And every category of person has many people who are confident in that aspect of themselves.

And then there is opposite to emotion. I use this a lot when I cross the street oddly enough. I hate crossing the street at cross walks if there are cars. “What if they wave me on but I can’t see them through the glare in their window and I just stand there awkwardly?” “What if I think they let me go first but then they begin to drive as I start crossing and I have to jump back with embarrassment?” “I’m almost to a cross walk and there’s a car coming. Maybe I should stop and look at my phone and act like I’m too busy to cross the street until that car is gone.” … “No, I better just be strong and cross the street with that car. I’ll feel so much stronger when it’s over.” So yes, I often do cross the street especially when I don’t want to. It’s an incredible feeling, even crossing the street, to defy your fears.

Finally being okay with sleeping in

This ideal just came to me recently. When I was a teenager and my cousins slept over, they would always be up at around six am, while I couldn’t get up until around nine. I cannot get up in the morning without an immense amount of trouble. I like working nights because I don’t have to wake up. I hate mornings. Let’s just put it that way. But when you sleep in, this is an easy recipe for self-loathing. “I’m lazy.” “If everyone else wakes up that early I should be able to too.” Well, a few days ago I was finally okay with myself for the times when I do sleep in. I’m a night owl. And there are reasons why I am. I like the darkness, I like driving around at night. I like walking at night. I like staying up late. I love being a night owl because I love the night. I can know why I love being a night owl in my own love of the darkness. I hear the crickets of the night and I love them, so I love the fact that I will stay up late to listen to them. And then, being a night owl leads to the inevitable…I am not an early bird. We can also just switch all of my ideals onto an early bird. You know why you love the morning, maybe it’s the birds chirping or the idea of a whole day ahead of you. And because you know exactly why you love the mornings, you can love your early bird self for being able to see that beauty in the dawn. So back to my point. Be a night owl and sleep in. Don’t consider yourself lazy. You just love the moon, the crickets, the stars, the glow under the streetlights. You feel happiness when you look out into the night, and that happiness is why you sleep in. When you wake up and look at the clock and it’s noon and the sun is already streaming onto your face, think about the reasons. You love the moon more than the sun and that’s perfectly okay. And if anyone tries to tell you, you are lazy for sleeping in, go ahead and just tell them that you love the stars. If anyone tries to tell you, you are lazy for going to bed early, tell them you love the sunshine.

Beauty in my major

When I was getting ready to go to college I was depressed and didn’t care at all about my future. Now I am so excited for my future that I got depressed about having a major I don’t like, but have channeled my excitement and turned my excitement on my major and found the beauty in it. My major is marketing and I always wanted to do things with animals. I wanted to be a marine biologist and I was going to go to college for that but I ended up being so depressed I literally just clicked a major and went on with my life. I knew nothing of marketing. I didn’t care that I wasn’t interested, because I wasn’t interested in anything. So instead of sulking about my major I decided to channel it. Here are the reasons why I found marketing to be a great major. If you have chosen something you regret, you can find a way to love it.

  1. The potential to have a job in a “the office” type setting-Being so close to others and being able to have strange work relationships like from the show the office. (Yes this show is actually possible-I have these kinds of relationships at my current job but I’d like it to stay that way in a new job. Plus, in an office setting I’ll be able to enjoy it more because the job I have now is very physically demanding and it makes me too tired to care as much as I could about how funny my co-workers are)
  2. Being an artist/scientist-I need to be creative to grab people’s attention while finding out what will grab their attention.
  3. Honestly, I see so much beauty in the business type. Dressing in business clothes, being strong and getting things done. The problem for me is that I’m not the business type. I can only pretend to be the business-type but then I’ll feel like a fraud next to these amazing people. If you are a businessman or woman, you can love yourself so much because of how impressive you are. Going to interviews and working your way up and giving presentations is incredibly hard. Yesterday I almost didn’t apply for a job because they said you need to be ok with presentations. That has always been my worst fear. Well, I thought to myself, “If I want to be as amazing as I view actual business people, I need to apply to this job and fight through my fear of presentations.”
  4. I also like the idea of a cute little cubicle.

Weddings alone

In two days I go to a wedding alone. My self esteem isn’t doing all too well at the moment and I desperately need a way to be okay with going alone. It’s a friend who has friends that are all confident and in relationships. Then there’s me. In my head, I’ll be the only one alone, which most likely will not be true. Before I would just say to myself, “I have to go. But this is going to be horrible. I cannot wait until it is over.” But now I can say, “I am going to go. But I need to make the most out of it by digging deep into the situation and finding the good.” I already knew it would make me stronger. However, this one didn’t seem so appealing this time. I’ll be strong going alone. That’s great! But not enough this time. I even had to google it because these blueprints to finding the good in every situation isn’t working with my brain right at this moment. I at least found that it’s not strange to go alone. I learned that other people go alone as well as I. It’s an experience. Not everyone can say they went to a wedding alone. It’s an accomplishment especially when you have low self-esteem. Writing that right there made me more confident but I still feel my nerves all over my body. Lets turn this moment into a bucket list task. “I want to survive a wedding alone.” Now, this will be my second wedding of my life. The only other one was when I was twelve. So, when will my next wedding be? Another ten years? I have found that this is an experience that is tough to deal with. A situation that would be awesome to survive. So, why not put it on my bucket list if I’ll feel accomplished when it’s all over? I can’t skip out now. I won’t be able to check this off for another ten years. What fun would it be to live on the safe side all the time? Any time you are about to do something you think you will hate, just think about how strong you will feel and grab your bucket list and write, “I want to get through [insert experience here] and come out stronger.” Be careful though. Don’t say to yourself, “I have to go.” Maybe find a perfect way out of the situation and then just throw it aside. In the end you may not believe you’re strong enough because you really didn’t have a way out. You “had” to go. Your brain might tell you, “You’re actually weak because you couldn’t even say no.” Well, now you can fight back your negative thoughts with that excuse you never used. “I could have stayed home, but I went anyway.” Now that’s being a warrior.

The beauty in being an only child

Because it was national siblings day, I decided to talk about something I always hated about myself…being an only child. It was rare and everyone seemed so happy with their siblings (even though they fought, I thought that was better than being an only child). But now that I have gotten older, I have found ways to love it. One of them being one of the reasons why I hated it…it is rare. We are a rare breed. I look at people now who are only children in a different way I looked at them when I was younger. I used to think, “finally, someone to share my pain,” but now I think of it as beautifully unique. This thought in itself makes me okay with it all. This also means that the roommates I have had over the years have been like an adventure because I’ve never shared a room with anyone until then. There really should be a national only children day for the only children and a way to speak about the stereotypes. I don’t think this makes you lonely. I think it makes you okay with being alone. I love being alone with just me and my dog, and I believe being without siblings prepared me for this. So are you an only child? You are beautifully unique. Thank you to the other only children posts on the internet that helped me see this.

How to find worthiness ISTJ and ISFJ

These are two more personalities from the myers briggs test. First off, let me just say that my mother is an ISFJ (defender), I believe,  and I already aspire to be like her so I already know why I wish to be this personality. I should also say that this is the second post of the worthiness I see in each personality type from the most accurate personality test I have taken. My mother as an ISFJ takes care of people while also taking care of herself. She does so much that she reminds me of the definition of a warrior and when I am strong I see her in myself and I want to be the kind of person who is able to do as much as she does because it’s amazing. Even if I am remembering wrong and she isn’t and ISFJ, then the piece of her that I look up to the most is the defender parts of her. The people I look up to in the ISFJ category are Kate Middleton and Mother Teresa. These are the angels who can work tirelessly to help others and can be so impressive whilst doing so. ISTJ is the logistician. People I look up to in this category are Natalie Portman, Denzel Washington, and Hermoine Granger. The myers briggs website states that people who have this personality type enjoy taking responsibility for their actions. I find that completely respectable. I find that I do that because I don’t want people to get angry with me, but I wish I did it for the reasons of the ISTJ. ISTJ are very responsible and I believe that to be a very likable quality and very grown up. I found the worthiness of being grown up when I was in a tough situation and acted like a child. At the time I didn’t care, but after the fact, I was ashamed of myself and wanted to be responsible to take away that shame. So I would love to be responsible like the ISTJ. I also love the idea of being calm like the website states this personality is. Calm reminds me of water. And this reminds me of being graceful. This whole personality reminds me of being a water like being while solving some intense problem with patience and grace.

INFP Worthiness

The myers briggs test gives an extremely accurate idea of who you are. It reminds me of astrological signs but more accurate. I am a Leo and I’ve never been into the star signs because I do not identify with the Leo sign. However, I identify with my quiz results of the myers briggs test. So I have decided to get into the shoes of every result for the most accurate quiz I have seen and find a reason to wish to be every single one including the one that I was put into. I will be doing this over a course of a few posts. Taking this test has made me okay with my personality so I have decided to share with you why I like being INFP and why I would wish to be all the others ones that you can be. INFP stands for introverted, intuitive, feeling, prospecting and turbulent. The people I look up to in this category are William Shakespeare, Anne from Anne of green gables, Alicia Keys, and Regina Specktor to name a few. I like being intuitive because it makes me feel like I am magical. I think I am good at reading others emotions and I never thought much of it until this quiz. Being intuitive is like living in a magical place. This category also means I am creative and I have always loved writing and anything creative. I saw a quote saying that I am half child and half ancient. This is a perfect example of the worthiness I see in both. I used to hate the idea of growing old but I like the idea of acting old. I can love acting like a child but also love acting old. I dress old but I am dressed old jumping around like a little kid. I can see the worthiness in childlike manner and an older manner in myself. I have made a post about this before but being introverted makes for a dreamer and a dreamer makes for a magical energy given off which I love about being a dreamer. I used to be ashamed at how much I remember about people, but apparently this is common with INFP. I used to believe that remembering so much meant that I was just insecure. Like I can only remember because being with people I am always comparing so being around people can often be very upsetting if I am stuck in my head. I felt I only remember because I am damaged but that’s not the case. Learning that I am INFP and seeing how others respond to this makes me completely okay with remembering so much. (Considering I remember little social details instead of details that will help me get A’s on all my tests) More magic to the INFP ideal for the remembering portion even if it’s not on tests. INFP have very contradictory personalities. We want to know who we are so bad but because we don’t fit into one certain label, we obsess over who we are because we can’t figure our own personalities and souls out. Taking this quiz and reading quotes has changed my own perspective of, “I have no clue who I am! Am I fake a child who really has an old soul? Or am I a fake old soul who is really a child!?” No I am just, “Half old and half ancient.” It makes no sense but the fact that others feel the same way is very helpful for me to accept this piece and not try to figure out which side of me is the real one. “Who on earth am I!? I like being with people but I need to be alone!” Well, I’ve always wanted to be mysterious and even though I don’t believe I am, being a “walking contradiction” makes for me to be a complete mystery to myself. I must point out that because I fit into this category I am obviously relating to it more. In the coming posts I will find the worthiness in each type based upon certain desires to fit into the rest of the categories but because I can’t relate to all of them, I might not get into as much detail as I am here.